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Do you know what beauty is?

Beauty is writing in the impermanence of pencil
At 1:30 am known I am going to go to sleep.
And dream of holding onto everything,
And hoping I never awake from it.

It is knowing how very much I love you
And no one else understanding any of it.

It’s crying over pains never to happen,
Only [...]

Take Care

Take care = (tak kar) command, n, v, adj, adv, prep
1. What must be done.
2. I love you.
3. be yourself.
4. enjoy life
5. be happy
6. be sad
7. be depressed
8. be exstatic if you want
9. take care of yourself
10. I will never leave
11. I am [...]

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Hold not in hands
Within the folds of the heart
Not in minds
Within the boundaries of the soul
Not in life
Within something more
Not in ourselves
Within everyone
Neither here-nor there
Parts of everything
Bits of no one
Pieces, puzzles

April 23, 1999

Table of contents for Staring Off RooftopsMarch 28, 1999March 21, 1999March 30, 1999April 6, 1999April 10, 1999April 23, 1999 I found myself wondering the streets of Chicago. Moving amidst the buildings, wondering along the wind, fighting the rain.

The Museum of Contemporary Art appears ahead. I climb the steps, mountainous, and drop my pack [...]

Repeat

Repeat, repeat, peat, re
I’ve written a fair amount. Nothing dramatic
Just words. A lot of the words have been given away
Given to another so they
Might be read. I don’t have copies
I really don’t know what I’ve written.
It’s hard to tell, maybe I just
Thought this before. So if you’ve read it
Somewhere before, remember [...]

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To experience happiness one must believe in it.
That is true for experience of any emotion, I suppose.
The straightforward approach to the object,
Only serve to hinder your final goal.

belief or faith – differences? – how does this ties into concern – anyones – ultimate or otherwise

April 10, 1999

Table of contents for Staring Off RooftopsMarch 28, 1999March 21, 1999March 30, 1999April 6, 1999April 10, 1999April 23, 1999 The night has gotten cold. The rain has finally stopped. The sky is clearing up. A star can be seen.
In the distance, a horn honks. The wind blows.
I stand under a building [...]

April 6, 1999

Table of contents for Staring Off RooftopsMarch 28, 1999March 21, 1999March 30, 1999April 6, 1999April 10, 1999April 23, 1999 an Image:
Me, standing at a crosswalk. Black canvas bag draped over a shoulder, hair falling in my eyes. A long coat, battered boots, and frayed pants.
Dark, so dark that bright days become nights, sunglasses. [...]

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We search for simplicity,
I

it is much easier when it is found

What is it to be, to gain an internal simplicity –
Coincided w/external

March 30, 1999

Table of contents for Staring Off RooftopsMarch 28, 1999March 21, 1999March 30, 1999April 6, 1999April 10, 1999April 23, 1999 There’s a pond in the middle of the park. They drain it in the winter so that it doesn’t damage the fountain’s pipes, I suppose.
It becomes a muddy messy place in the middle of the [...]